Monday, December 12, 2011

Murder


जिस मर्ज की दवा मिलती थी तुझसे कभी 
उस मर्ज की लाश लिए फिरते है हम अभी

तमन्ना मेरी तो खुद घुट घुट के मर गयी
अपनी तमन्ना को मरने ना देना कभी 

मिलेंगे हैवान मुझ जैसे हर कहीं 
खुद के इंसान को मारना ना कभी

बस वक़्त का खेल हम हार गए ये सदी
फ़रिश्ते तो हम भी होते थे कभी 

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Where'd You Go?



Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, and I'm plannin' to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home... 

Monday, August 15, 2011

I still want...

I still want to be with you.
I still want to hold your hands, and feel your heartbeats.
I still want to look into you eyes, and see our future.
I still want to hug you, and let you know I'll always be there.
I still want to hold you tight, and confess my love for you.
I still want to give you my shoulder, and pat you to sleep.
I still want to sing you lullabies, and make your nightmares go away.
I still want to listen to you, and your tell you sweet nothings.
I still want to be next to you, and see the world the way you see.
I still want to be with you, and spend the rest of our lives together.

But alas, 
That's all what I want, and you need none of these..

Monday, August 8, 2011

Dear *Kool* Dude

Dear Kool Dude from the city of hearts, 
Welcome to the Maximum city!!

Hope your stay here is safe, sound and healthy.
Interacting with you was a great experience, and an eye opener!!

You might be a great driver - even challenge Michael Schumacher with your skills - but I'm least bothered about that aspect of your driving. 
What I'm concerned more about is the kool quotient you attach to being drunk and taking the wheels in that stinking-drunk state of yours. 
No, I don't care for your life - given your kool status, I don't give it a shit - I'm worried for the regular Mumbaikar who happen to be on the road while you take the wheel.
You might have never taken the wheel after 9 pm without getting drunk, but that's not an achievement you want it to sound like.
You might have an accident free record of drunk driving for last 7 years, but there's always a first time.

You might be son of an industrialist or his right hand, but who are YOU?

- an average regular Mumbaikar
.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Song for You



So today I wrote this song for you
'Cause a day can get so long
And I know its hard to make it through
When you say there's something wrong

So I'm trying to put it right
'Cause I want to love you with my heart
All this trying has made me tight
And I don't know even where to start

Maybe that's a start

'Cause you know its a simple game
That you play filling up your head with rain
And you know you've been hiding from your pain
In the way, in the way you say your name

And I see you
Hiding your face in your hands
Flying so you won't land
You think no one understands
No one understands

So you hunch your shoulders and you shake your head
And your throat is aching but you swear
No one hurts you, nothing could be sad
Anyway you're not here enough to care

And you're so tired you dont sleep at night
As your heart is trying to mend
You keep it quiet but you think you might
Disappear before the end

And it's strange that you cannot find
Any strength to even try
To find a voice to speak your mind
When you do, all you wanna do is cry

Well maybe you should cry

And I see you hiding your face in your hands
Talking 'bout far-away lands
You think no one understands
Listen to my hands

And all of this life
Moves around you
For all that you claim
You're standing still
You are moving too
You are moving too
You are moving too
I will move you
.
(Alexi Murdoch's Song For You from Time Without Consequence.)

Sunday, April 10, 2011

In the name of the rose...

I read the following somewhere in newspaper years ago, and liked it, then.
Still haven't figured out who wrote the original piece.
Do include the source in comments if you have any idea.


Red roses were her favourites, her last name was also Rose.
And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows.
The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door.
The card said, "Be my love," like all the years before.

Each year, he sent her roses, and the note would always say,
'I love you even more this year, than last year on this day.
My love for you will always grow, with every passing year.'
She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.

She thought, he ordered in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away.
He always liked to do things early, way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase.
Then, sat the vase beside the potrait of his smiling face.
She would sit for hours, in her husband's favourite chair.
While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate.
While loneliness the solitude, that had become her fate.
Then, the very hour, as on their special day before,
The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.
The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,
Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?

'I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago,'
The owner said, 'I knew you'd call, and you would want to know.
The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance.
Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance.

There is a standing order, that I have on file down here,
And he paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year.
There also is another thing, that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card... he did this years ago.

Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here,
That's the card.. that should be sent, to you the following year.'
She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...
'Hello my love, I know its been a year since I've been gone,
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome.

I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife.

You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need.
I know it's been a year, but please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed you tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years.

When you get these roses think for all the happiness,
That we had together, and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still.

Please try to find happiness, while living out your days.
I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.
The roses will come every year, and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock.

He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt,
To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him,
And place the roses where we are, together once again.'

Saturday, April 2, 2011

The Private Blog

Some, I mean really very handful of people, might be thinking what's the fuss about the 'private blog' I mentioned some time back.
That's actually the original blog I wrote, which is now open to selected few readers only.
Why? Simple....

आंखों में आसुओं को लाया ना करो, दर्द-ए-दिल हर किसी को बताया ना करो|
मुट्ठी में नमक ले कर फिरते है लोग यहाँ, ज़ख्म-ए-दिल हर किसी को दिखाया ना करो||

Sunday, March 20, 2011

The Story Untold

Some time back, I mentioned about a story, which was supposed to appear by now.

It was  perfect no-names mode stuff, with no reference to any one. Though it was inspired by few people, around me, and their situation.
And as I expected, I couldn't obtain a NOC from few of them.

As such I'm not an all-appeasing person, but these few I can't afford to make upset, any more than I've already made.

But don't be upset guys. If you are my drinking buddy, if ever you happen to be one, you might atleast get to know the fuss this was all about.

Till that actually happen in reality, Adios!!